been calling homes for days asking if they needed any voluntarily work, but all the outcomes are the same- REJECTED! pfft~STUPID!!!!

sent 2 emails earlier on to salavation army and also the Canossaville Children's Home. I hope one of them gave me a good response, oh please god~

proposal left undone ~ so dead a few more days left to finish up everything. ahh! gosh~

PR CA tomorrow, i cant seems to get everything into my head.
gotten back the mock CA earlier today. did pretty well. i hope i could get back the same or even better results for tomorrow's paper. i know am greedy, but its all in human. dont you agree? after school went down to kk to ask about some project stuffs. pff ~ it didnt went well. less then a week to get everything done. have to rush for all the researching and proposal. probably after tomorrow:D interview on thurs, still pondering on what should i wear for my top. pffts~ its irritating!!!

out to amk library with b.e & e.w to study~

what a studying i shall say~ for me lah:D
am so not used to a quiet environment. its just not me lah. unless am alone, you will find me quiet. or with someone that i dont really have any topic to talk to. if not, most of the time, my mouth is moving:D went for dinner & then anderson ice-cream. a birthday treat from them. thank you:D spent rest of the day over there chit chatting. talk basically about everything. from body organs to body to some stupid stuffs. home aftermath:)

sometimes spending time with a different group of people is fun:D you have tons of things to gossip about. updating on each others' life & not forgetting the others. had a news which WOW! me. haha:D




in the life now, without experience, you will lose out a lot too.
not only studies.

went for an haircut today. it looks kinda weird on me, and i doubt it suits me=(
maybe its only the first day? hmm~

down to town area to company ew to get her bag. i want mine too. but i need money.
:( shall wait for dec end of year sales:) am going to save money for this!!!:)

year end sales, wait for me~~~:D




Sentosa interview next thurs. group interview~ am scared. i would rather prefer individual's. :/ i hope it turns out to be a good news:D

one said, you need to fail to succeed. but i've failed for so many times. when will the succeed came to me? or have i already walked past it?

i still hope i would pass the interview and get a job. being jobless and poor is terrible~

Singapore's recession is over.
but mine doesnt seems to be. & its getting worst. i think~


sometimes quarreling adds spices to your daily life. but when its too over, 那就是傷感情了.




birthday coming soon~ every year i doesnt seems to have any changes in my birthday wishes. no exceptional for this year too. when one asked me what i want for my birthday. i dont know too~ a little hand made will do too actually~ cause no matter how many things you gave me, i might still think am still lacking of something. am only one person, how many pairs of shoes do i need? how many bags could i carry? how many clothes can i wear? even you gave me the whole world, i would still not be happy. all i need is time time from you people, my friends,& .. family.

if 2012 is really happening. i do hope to spend my very last birthday as human[:)] with my family. taking a family portrait. FULL FAMILY PORTRAIT- including (both sides of) relatives. i know its stupid. cause when the earth is gone, the photo is gone too. but at least, i die with without any regrets:) that's what i want i think. & maybe of all my life, this is what am lacking. this is the hole that hasnt been able to fill up. a family portrait. some reading this, may feels that just gather all and go to some place, a studio maybe, and get the photo done. but only if this isjust so simple as you think.maybe it is, just that i complicated it. when speak up, & maybe i would get my wish done? if only the time can turn back for me just this once. i would hope that the family relations would still be like the past. during my childhood. maybe its just all memories.

looking through my photo album, i dont seems to have any family photos taken ever since after P3. the gatherings are compressed into once a year. and not like the past anymore.

CONFOUNDED are in human's blood i believe. everyone will pass by this place some might move on, but would eventually still found back this place. as for me, i think. i never left this place before. pacing up and down. wanting to move up, but the mind still doesnt seems want to. sometimes, the deeper feelings of mine. i really do hope someone in the family would read it & understand. & not simply just making their own guessing. but when i found out they read it, i might just unleashed my fury on them. tsk~ its sometimes tiring being a person.

but if i would have the chance to be someone else. i wouldnt want to. cause their lives, seems more tiring then mine:) am happy with mine, actually:D

& my birthday wish this time round,
i would hope for full family portrait taken before i left this world:)

jobless again they are all looking for full-timer & hardly any looking for part-timer.
am i too lucky or what? tsk~ hopefully the interview next week for the Sentosa would be a success~ please.

OMG! AM SO GOING TO UNIVERSAL STUDIO~ :D


& shue eewee, its not 100plus okay. less then 50bucks~ let's go together someday:D


am so into striking nail colors recently. tomorrow/friday shall find one:)

SOURCE FROM;
YAHOO! SINGAPORE NEWS

just got back home~ terrible headache no idea why~
zoo trip today. was short and sweet lah~ some tour around there about the places for events, and then had a talk. bus-ed back home.

received the call from sentosa, interview date; next thursday 1600hours.
sorry am greedy,but i wish
to received the call from marina bay sands for an interview too. please god~

LOVE TODAY:D

its still the same today):
morning, saw a dead lizard at the stairs, worst still, its flatten
walking to station, at the very same spot, nearly trip and fall.
next, pfft~ forget it. speaking of it makes my blood boils.

but on a brighter note,
received my parcel today:D my star headset:D
and yah:D hopefully i scored a high marks for the mock paper today, cause i've studied:D but there's one question, that i believe i will lost that 5marks):

*for the first time, am hoping to score for a high marks which i usually dont. a pass is good enough for me.



zoo trip tomorrow for mice and PR lesson.
*3weeks left to finish the drafts for both the project. nice one~

and for god's sake.
even though i sometimes do listen to comments from my friends. but for your info, its from friends that know me well. like what rights do you have to comment on me? when you dont know anything about me.

have already had a bad impression, & now its worst~ okay WORST

sometimes i just dont understand some people like seriously.
they can jump into some stupid conclusion, in no time.
like how well does they know each other enough to call each other
BFFs, & goes into a relationship. and like the wolf a huff and a puff and everything is gone~
friendship or relationships. all these will just turn into ashes.

i dont understand, & i think i wil never